Well, so far so good with my liver. My husband and I have been carrying on as usual. Trying, desperately desperately trying, to conceive this little one of ours!
Today I lie in bed with a cold. UUGGGGHHHH!!! I'm SICK!!! ;)
Powered through the work day, and then let everyone know that I am going to take tomorrow off. Yes. That is just what I need.
A break. Bed, bath, movies, soup. It's raining outside, and for that I am happy.
I took a pregnancy test today and it turned out negative.
My period was only a little over one day this month, and only one day last month. It has been dwindling off, so it seems, ever since I stopped taking Clomid for my IUIs in April. I am really worried about what this means, but don't want to let worry rule my life.
I don't want to be consumed with negativity, so. I allow this:
One evening of rain; one evening of sadness because the little pee-stick gave me the wrong result. The result that I am so tired of seeing.
Tomorrow is going to be a better day, a day of healing, and I am going to talk to my OBGYN Thursday about an ultrasound (for possible scar tissue adhesion in my abdomen) and also a laproscopy. Does anyone have an opinion about laproscopy procedures? Ha! The real question is: Will anyone read this?
I hope that my few followers are still around, I am thinking of you and sending you all positive hopeful thoughts. I'd love to hear how all of you are doing!!
Sooooo.....
There it is! There is the scoop.
Health, happiness and babies to all :)
It's so good to see you back! I've been thinking of you and hoping the best. I'm sorry that it hasn't happened yet. But you are staying strong and that is a great inspiration.
ReplyDeleteI am currently on CD9, 50mg clomid, for our 2nd iui. The first iui, I took 100 mg, and it gave me way too many follicles...that were ginormous.
We had to skip last month bc we were out of town...I'm feeling so skeptical about this cycle tho. I think I've just lost that excitement. I, too, am SO tired of seeing the same result. We've been trying for more than 2 years now. And since our insurance doesnt cover any fertility treatments...I dont know how much longer we go on w/ this.
But as you said...tomorrow is going to be a better day. Thanks again for your inspiring words.
It's been a long time since you posted... wondering how your journey is going... just embarked on our first medicated IUI cycle... in the 2WW now.
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