My journey to find my mother... through motherhood

My mother passed away this summer. July 15th, 2009. 3:00 AM. I can barely breathe.
I miss her so much, I think of her always.
My husband and I have been trying to have a baby for over three years. It is extremely difficult to be going through this without my mom, it's something that we've always shared. We've always talked about the joys and blessings that children bring. I know that she is with me, though. With both of us, me and my husband. Her energy and light surround us, her presence is strong, I know she's with me. My goals are to begin healing, emotionally, spiritually; to begin the process of finding peace and understanding. Also to start a family of my own, and continue the cycle of love- the ultimate sacred bond between mother and child. To step into her role, to be a mother. I only pray I can be half of the amazing woman/mother/wife that she was. She was perfect.
This is my first blog, and it's very late.
I miss and love her eternally.